I think my star has dimmed. I don't seem to be excelling in the postion I am right now. I feel like I'm drowning with work. I haven't even started with my thesis yet. I am so dead. I am still in my mutt hole and I feel like all the more that I would stay, the more the hole gets deep, and by then, I could not leave it. I need to go. I'm desperate to go. I'm so screwed.