Nowadays, though I may take full control of my time, I have been very busy to the point that I neglect myself. My routine everyday is take a bath, get dressed, brush teeth and then grab my bags and dash to the car for the morning rush. Nothing quite unusual but the little extra I put into myself eons ago seem to be thrown out of nowhere. I only get to comb my hair at the car. I sometimes miss putting on body lotion or a moisturizer. I haven't worn makeup since I can't remember.
I lack exercise, I eat too much. I keep on procastinating on the former. I have many excuses left and right. It is no wonder that I am gaining weight very fast. I am at my heaviest to date. I have bought work out clothes 2-3 months ago to inspire me to get my ass moving, yet, I have not gone to the gym nor opened my laptop to follow a 15 minute workout.
Everytime I look at myself in the mirror, and compare it to my old pictures of 3 years ago, I feel that I am the dull version of myself. Because I don't feel good of what I see, insecurities creep in.
I have been so busy, I neglected my responsibility to myself: To Look Good and to Feel Good. I know it is not obligatory but sometimes putting on a red lipstick boost your confidence or wearing a 3-inch heeled shoes makes you feel empowered. I would like to open my closet and won't get limited because I could fit into all my clothes instead of me squeezing into my jeans which I could no longer button. I would like to have curves unlike my surfboard of a body.
So yeah, I know I should have started exercising or pick up the make - up kit than blogging my woes and ranting on my shitty self. I guess, I have to put it in writing, some sort of a promise to taking care of myself, to a healthier, fitter version of me.
I started my 15 minute zumba workout and extra 30 jump ropes in my new sports bra and nike kicks.... Im far from having flat abs but I'm getting there.